Sarah Who Wanders...

In another life I was a teacher married to a police officer. We had two little blonde boys. I dreamt of a bigger life for myself- or maybe just a happier one. I enjoyed teaching, but it had never been what I wanted. It was a career chosen because the degree was "convenient" to obtain while I worked full time as a treatment coordinator in a dental office. My husband at the time had dreams too, excitement on the job, and a home full of children. I think in some ways we each failed to be 100% honest with the other in what we wanted. He wanted the stay home wife and home cooked meals, but we could not afford for me not to work (that also was not my dream). I wanted travel and adventure, and big scary goals in medicine that kept getting pushed further and further away. I don't think any one reason led to our failure, to a marriage full of anger, resentment and broken dreams. I think we both grew up and got to know ourselves better. A few days ago he says to me "yesterday

I have missed writing very much. This may have been the LONGEST I have gone yet without a post. Here is an update for my friends and family who follow along with my adventures.  CURRENTLY:   These days sometimes it feels hard to get a deep breath (and not because I am sick! 😂). My schedule changed drastically in May and went from working in clinic twice a week (with my halftime hours back thankfully as they were reduced due to COVID for a bit) and having class three times a week to working twice a week, having class twice a week, and having a full day clinical rotation twice a week. I feel a lot busier because I am now actually gone from home twice as much but still having classwork, homework, and tests to study for!  My nurse practitioner program is 28 months long and I have a little over nine months to go which means I am (finally) on the downhill. That doesn’t mean it’s easy coasting right now though by any means. I am learning at a rate that is mentally and physically exhausting m